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Here’s something to think about

DARN IT. I’m supposed to be sleeping now. Thanks to the minor blackout here, my mom had me waken up and try to put it back on because she said she tried, but couldn’t. Now, the thing with my mom is that she panics easily. Me, I’m the level-headed type. I don’t let this get to me at all. It’s a good thing, when viewed in this light, because we ended up having the lights back on without a fuss.

But you know when it isn’t a good thing? Here’s a short story.

I was the one who had shouted, “CALL THE AMBULANCE!” multiple times to my mom when my dad was having a heart attack that killed him. Because all she did that night was panic, and my sister couldn’t stop crying. Even at the emergency, I had to be calm. I told her that everything was all right, that he was going to be fine. Heck, I even convinced myself that he was going to be fine and we were going to think back to that moment as a family and warn my dad not to do any more rigorous exercise until he completely recovers.

Even if I was prepared for the worst, no amount of preparation could bolster my shock and… I don’t know what it was. Some sort of emotion that washed over at me and I couldn’t breathe. I broke down, and called out to him, to his lifeless body in that emergency room, as if it would bring him back. I still had hope.

Then, when the line went flat, and there was the dreaded, long beep of the machine, they switched it off and I knew he was gone. There was no use anymore. I had a good cry at the hospital, until we were brought back home and I got my act together again.

Only, it resulted in endless vomiting and the worst headache I had ever had for a week or so.

See? In this story, it isn’t good to be level-headed. Too much of something is definitely bad.

I’m going back to sleep, I really need a clear head for work tomorrow.

Thanks for listening.

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